Cleaning the Mirror

I have been blessed and cursed with a philosophical mind, (depending on how I look at it)  let me explain. After almost an entire month of trying to understand God in philosophical terms I have come across one of the most important realizations of my life. In all reality, God is simply too vast and complex for our material senses and intelligence to comprehend. This is not something to be discouraging, but to actually inspire a deep felt love and appreciation (bare with me). There comes a time when you must admit that ultimately you can not know everything, our true intelligence is limited by our false ego but that's a whole other topic. It is at this point of realization when one must simply let go and have faith. It is hard to explain to anyone because something like one's feelings about the higher power are often very personalized and based off their own beliefs that they have been cultivating since birth. However I believe Srila Prabhupada, one of the most self realized and genius persons to walk the earth puts it in terms that most can understand, "Religion without philosophy is sentiment, sometimes fanaticism, while philosophy without religion is mental speculation." (Gita 3.3 purport) Faith without understanding (also called blind faith) is weak and is likely to lose it's composure when tested, but at the same time no amount of scholarly knowledge can give you a complete understanding of something which is so beyond this world. Once you give up the endless search for the higher power through speculation and implement a faith that compliments your thinking, you can begin to understand the ultimate reality. Socrates makes reference to this point in a person's spiritual growth with the following quote, "I know that I know nothing." though it may seem paradoxical, it is truly the humility and acceptance that means everything. Because the mind is such a powerful entity, once we can put it to rest in it's endeavours and just be, our divine perception may take the wheel as opposed to our artificial intelligence or false ego. Let it be, it is truly one of the most wise and powerful uses of your free will that you may come to know. Tomorrow I board an 18-hour train to Vrindavan, the mecca of God worship in India, much the population there is consumed with an overwhelming love for God, or Krishna as most call him there. I am very excited.